Junior year seems to be the highest point of the roller coaster ride. Right off the bat I can say that this year is the most challenging year of my educational career. Having two AP classes, advanced art, chemistry, and algebra II makes me feel as if I will not be capable of accomplishing the things I want in order to go to college.
Balancing school work and sports places heavy weights onto my shoulders; adding a job this year pushes me down further making it hard to stay on my feet. Looking at how this year is going makes me feel as if I were taking courses of a first grade learner the past two years. The difficulties of the tasks being given have become intense. Lucky for me, I have a beautiful and smart girlfriend that comforts me through all the stress. Being ranked number two in her class of over 4oo learners pays off for the both of us; my homework assignments become easier with her help. Our study dates, her motivation, her support, and her positive influence pushes me to strive for a better education, keeps me from giving up, and motivates me to be the best. She’s proven to me that anything is possible as long as you believe it is; that is why I am still striving to be in top 10 for my class and not settle for a rank of thirteen. She has allowed me to understand that I am capable of reaching any goal I set. She has opened my eyes to see myself in ways that I couldn’t even see. My girlfriend has seen me at my worst and in her mind she is still certain that I am the best. I cannot ask for more from her; she has given me strength and evidently more support than my own parents.
Although this year has come with several breakdowns, I feel as if it has just made me a more responsible person. I do not rely on my parents for money, I do not rely on others for happiness, and I do not allow myself to be put down even if everything around me seems to have fallen apart. I know I complain about almost every assignment, every practice drill, every class, and every shift, but when I truly stop to think I come to realize that it will only help prepare me for my future. The last thing I want to do with my life is waste it. The easiest thing to do when times gets hard is give up and walk away, but I have come too far to just stop here. Junior year has given me the urge to leave everything and everyone, but I refuse to fall and not get up. The one thing I can take away from what I have experienced is that I have collapsed, I have climbed, I have been beaten, I have been healed, but most importantly, I have grown.
I still have a lot to to learn. I find it crazy that this is only half of it. I already feel myself struggling and having a hard time with several assignments, but giving up is not an option for me. I know I am capable of accomplishing great things and getting the education necessary in order to get into a good college. After seeing the way this year is going, I honestly do not know if I will be able to make it into CSF or even finish the required learning targets, but I need to prove to my family that I do my work and that I am not like many other students who procrastinate. I have a goal to reach by the end of my senior year and the only way to get there is to finish strong this year. Junior year has been quite the ride, but it does not end here.
Balancing school work and sports places heavy weights onto my shoulders; adding a job this year pushes me down further making it hard to stay on my feet. Looking at how this year is going makes me feel as if I were taking courses of a first grade learner the past two years. The difficulties of the tasks being given have become intense. Lucky for me, I have a beautiful and smart girlfriend that comforts me through all the stress. Being ranked number two in her class of over 4oo learners pays off for the both of us; my homework assignments become easier with her help. Our study dates, her motivation, her support, and her positive influence pushes me to strive for a better education, keeps me from giving up, and motivates me to be the best. She’s proven to me that anything is possible as long as you believe it is; that is why I am still striving to be in top 10 for my class and not settle for a rank of thirteen. She has allowed me to understand that I am capable of reaching any goal I set. She has opened my eyes to see myself in ways that I couldn’t even see. My girlfriend has seen me at my worst and in her mind she is still certain that I am the best. I cannot ask for more from her; she has given me strength and evidently more support than my own parents.
Although this year has come with several breakdowns, I feel as if it has just made me a more responsible person. I do not rely on my parents for money, I do not rely on others for happiness, and I do not allow myself to be put down even if everything around me seems to have fallen apart. I know I complain about almost every assignment, every practice drill, every class, and every shift, but when I truly stop to think I come to realize that it will only help prepare me for my future. The last thing I want to do with my life is waste it. The easiest thing to do when times gets hard is give up and walk away, but I have come too far to just stop here. Junior year has given me the urge to leave everything and everyone, but I refuse to fall and not get up. The one thing I can take away from what I have experienced is that I have collapsed, I have climbed, I have been beaten, I have been healed, but most importantly, I have grown.
I still have a lot to to learn. I find it crazy that this is only half of it. I already feel myself struggling and having a hard time with several assignments, but giving up is not an option for me. I know I am capable of accomplishing great things and getting the education necessary in order to get into a good college. After seeing the way this year is going, I honestly do not know if I will be able to make it into CSF or even finish the required learning targets, but I need to prove to my family that I do my work and that I am not like many other students who procrastinate. I have a goal to reach by the end of my senior year and the only way to get there is to finish strong this year. Junior year has been quite the ride, but it does not end here.